insomniaaaaa

blah i cant sleep. so... ramble time.
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fixed braces.... painfully. but fixed, so yay.
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watched labyrinth, very cute movie. jim henson things reminded me of when i was little... and david bowie is so beautiful. really, he is.
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sort of sad. just found out i actually probably wont be home till 6 ish, which means i probably cant do anything till 7. so damn >_<. and kevin called but i wasnt there so he left a message... and it wasnt quite clear, but it looks like he may not be down from tahquitz this weekend, which is really really sad cuz i havnt seen him in almost two months. and ill have to deal with keeping the runes on my arm while im at arrowbear
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5 days till arrowbear!!! im so excited... i wonder how the jazz/choir people are doing right now. i need to remember to bring my volunteer paper thing from school though... and since i know theres no way ill remember that, im writing a list of stuff to bring. since im also trying to pack light.
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meh. im sadly majorly insecure about the fact that im an extremely undedicated musician and it looks likely that ill be moved down an orchestra next year... and between drum major and int dance, and THIS... thats too many letdowns classwise. well, on one hand... its high school and it doesnt really matter. but on the other... blah. i suck at everything, i have no talents and im lazy. i hate it.
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i should probably start the history homework one of these days. im already getting a vibe that AP world histoy will be worky-er than i thought.
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ok, i think that's it for now. i love you guys more than cake. oh yeah, pablos 10th birthday is tomorrow...erm, later today. so yay! so... love, and night